Race Matter in Disposable Hero

Not so long ago I wrote a post on Disposable Hero. However, in reviewing the song, I avoided entering the ‘race dimension’. On the one hand, even though I love the song so much, it really does a number on me emotionally. On the other hand, because articulating the ‘thinking’ employed by Frank Leepa in crafting this dimension is not necessarily an easy task.

Notwithstanding the above, I shall dare myself into entering this dimension. But before I start, perhaps I should mention that a play by David Mamet titled Race is to ‘blame’ for this self-daring exercise. Race was one of those productions that I recommended to all (and sundry) during the past Grahamstown National Arts Festival. It is an intricate piece that deals intelligently with prejudice and bigotry that stem (in as far as the storyline is concerned) from a potentially racially-charged criminal case: a rape of a black woman — possibly involved in the trick turning business — by a rich white married man.

In my opinion, both the play and the song carry the message: ‘race matters are not simple matters’ and/or ‘race is a nest of prejudice’. The only difference, again in my opinion, is that David Mamet in his writing was overt while Frank Leepa was subtle to the point that one may be forgiven for assuming that his composition lacks the message. In fact, I would argue that the only clue to the existence of this message lies with how Tšepo Tšola sings the line “they must be mad”: he is deep, emphatic and very purposeful in his delivery. (You really get a sense that he wants you, the listener, to appreciate that his powerful voice is a mere instrument or medium that shouldn’t distract one from engaging with what is being communicated.)

Basically, as Tšepo Tšola sings that line, curiosity builds up about the identity of the mad men. But as something to expect from Frank Leepa’s compositions, the ‘riddle’ is left for the listener to decode. My decoding led me to the conclusion that Frank Leepa was referring to a category of people that deserve the label racist. This deduction was made by tracking back to the part:

On the morning news, on television;
The big shots down split — split down in the middle.
[The Messiah-healer …]
So, who is going to be first on the plane?
They must be mad!

Aside, of course, from making note of the fact that television was still a novelty, I realised that a few things can be said in unpacking the above quoted lyrics. Fundamentally, we are reminded that we cannot make sweeping statements about a group of people. There was a split: the big shots — who happened to be all white men — didn’t all agree with the idea that, after fighting as brothers with black men, it was fair for them to be transported last. These few good men understood deeply what made the war, which had just ended, respectable. They understood that domination, of any kind, of one being by another is not fair or morally acceptable.

Unfortunately, because the good men in the big shots league were few, the outcome of the split favoured the wishes of the majority. Frank Leepa makes no direct mention of this fact; but very skillfully, he does put into perspective why an honourable man, a disposable hero (like his father), was disillusioned by the outcome. Disillusioned by the blindness of the majority to see injustice when it is directed to others. After a bloody war, how could they possibly fail to see the inherent injustice perpetuated by their ‘vote‘?!

Quick comment on the letter to the white liberalist ..

Barns forwarded me this link today. It is an open letter written to the white liberalist person by a gentleman called Sipho. He sent it because I think he knew I will say: I too get it! Indeed I get it.

Our white liberal friends are genuinely interested in making an effort to demonstrate that we are all human beings irrespective of colour. However, they sometimes do get a tad arrogant by thinking that their wish is a command…..(this is worth unpacking because these liberals are my friends. However, I won’t go into much details partly because I think I don’t have the right words to explain. In my mind, I think their arrogance stems from their inability to properly listen whilst they play the role of self-appointed advocates of what is right and wrong in this planet of ours, called Earth. Thus, inadvertently misrepresent my true feelings and/or views as a black person. I know often they mean well but it doesn’t change the fact that I feel like screaming: walk in my shoes then talk!)

Life is not rarely as we wish it. We all wish the world can be a better place but it simply can’t be if we are going to hide behind silence or refuse to engage with thorny issues. It is not okay that whites are being blamed for the past (when clearly they were a few good liberal ones) but it is also not okay that generations before us were blamed for being born as black. Actually, once in a while we of the new generation still have the pleasure of receiving the ‘if you were not black I would have treated you with a dose of humanity but blame the colour of your skin‘ treatment. Believe me, it is not a kosher experience but we embrace such treatment with a healthy sense of humour and sometimes with a bit of anger; but it is all part of the journey we are currently on! You will be blamed and we will once in a while be treated with unwarranted contempt – even from you, our dear white liberalist friends. This will continue to happen precisely because we are still all in the healing stage and learning about each others sensitivities and so on.

In the meantime lets engage and laugh at ourselves…it will pay off. Thank you Sipho for the letter to the white liberalist – it is truthful and yet fun to read due to those tiny embellishments that confirm that with enough sense of humour, we shall all make it irrespective of colour!

On Being a Black Liberal Feminist

I am one of those people who has an appreciation for music. Not just any music! I am talking good old music which embodies so much depth in it that a song you have listened to before can in one moment become so profound that you wonder to yourself if you really ever got the meaning before.

Today, as I listened to Guilty by Gladys Knight. I thought to myself: I can relate, Amen to that! Then I proceeded to Google for the lyrics but was unlucky with my search 🙁 . My motivation for Googling for the lyrics was that I finally found the words that describe me being a black liberal feminist. That is, I duly accept that I shall remain black and female. Therefore, all that I can ever do is to challenge myself to lead a life that is liberated in thought. A life where if I can think it then I can do it with God’s help and those that believe in me. And a life where I need not feel apologetic for declaring myself as a feminist because indeed I am!

Below are the stanzas that talked to my heart:

Yes, I am guilty of so many things. I have been desperate for the love and joy that I know life should bring.

I am guilty, yes I am guilty! Guilty of doing without social acceptance, proper respect and the essence of what life is all about.
I am guilty of being at war in a world where riches determine your worth not the measure of ones character, as it should be down here on earth.

So go on and sentence me and set me free because I know you cannot see that I am guilty for just being me. I am guilty of love and hating, just the same as anyone else. …

Its two strikes against me when I come out to bat; one strike for being female and one strike for being black. So I stand tall through it all! My Helper [this] because I know I will be female and black till the day I die! ….

As you can see from the last quoted stanza, being a black liberal feminist means I literally have a single shot otherwise its game over for me – or as they say: “strike three and I am out” !